As we each walk our individual paths on the journey of life, we often share common themes, one of the most common being the need for healing. Whether it is from blatant abuse and trauma or more seemingly subtle forms of spiritual wounding, the path of healing can be the most painfully isolating, and also the most connective and rewarding.
It is part of my specific purpose and intended path to be one that guides others with the wisdom born of my experience. I have lived the struggle of seeing myself as worthy of healing, and what follows is my gift and my hope that through my words, others can see the shining light within them that will always guide them home.
No matter what my past feelings, thoughts and actions were, against myself or others, if my heart is still beating, I am worthy of self-forgiveness. I am worthy of doing the work of diving deep into my own wounds of self-abandonment. I am worthy of the boundaries I set to protect myself from further harm from those who do not value me. I am worthy of the inner child work that heals me from the inside out. I am worthy of the small, frequent rituals of self-love that I practice. I am worthy of long deep breaths. I am worthy of my healing process. I am worthy of a life lived free from the constraints of the stories my wounded mind keeps telling to keep me ‘safe and small’. I am worthy of my bigness. I am worthy of emotionally, spiritually, deeply remembering, that I am an expression of God, and there is nothing that I could possibly be unworthy of.
Time doesn’t heal us. We heal the idea that time is anything more than a figment of our limited imaginations. Zoom out of this moment, go forward and back in time, and put your arms around every version of yourself that you find. Wrap each of them in the biggest hug you’ve ever given and tell them over and over again that they are worthy and deserving of all the love they could possibly want. Don’t stop saying it until you feel it. Until you either have tears streaming down your face and snot dripping from your nose, or are sobbing and holding yourself, laughing at how silly it was to ever think that you could be separate or excluded from the abundance of love that is who you are.
This is how we heal; ourselves, our ancestors, and the consciousness that the next generations are born into. The question is not “are you worthy?”, the question is: Are you willing to practice believing it?
Be your own superhero and give yourself the love you have always deserved. I say superhero because most of us have very little idea of what that looks and feels like, and that can be so frustrating that we want to give up before we start. It requires heroic effort to save ourselves sometimes, and please believe that I deeply understand this, but we must start, and we can start anywhere we are by placing our hand on our heart.
Try this practice when you need some love, validation, companionship and peace.
Place your hand on your heart (whichever feels most comfortable) and take a deep breath. Exhale audibly. Sigh and relax into your hand on your heart. Allow yourself to focus in and try to intentionally feel your heart beneath your hand. Imagine it as a sentient being, as a child, as a friend that you love dearly. Reach out and embrace them, yourself, your heart that is your friend, that houses your inner child in all of their tenderness and wounding. This heart of yours that has spent every minute of your life with you, before you were even consciously aware, was there. You have never been alone without it, and you never will be. You are being witnessed with compassion, and absolutely no judgement through every moment of your life. Lean into that support. Lean into that perspective of togetherness. You and your heart. Your deeply ingrained best friend and confidant.
You have a lifelong partner for the experience of a lifetime, and both of you are worthy of healing.
Acknowledging and healing this relationship can be challenging and uncomfortable but is absolutely worth the effort. Sometimes a neutral third party can assist in getting the conversation between you and your heart going, and I can be exactly that. Head to my services section to book a tarot reading with me and mention this blog in the detail section.
If you know you are ready for a deep dive into self-knowing, guided by a weaver of compassionate nonjudgment and the wisdom of symbolic magick, head over to the My Sacred Moon section to get the details on my self-discovery course.
Image by Kerry Mitchell