A reflection on transcendence, humanity, and finding peace within the journey
There’s a moment in every spiritual seeker’s journey when we begin to see through the veils of ordinary reality. We start recognizing patterns, programming, and limitations that once felt absolute. Naturally, this awakening births a deep desire within us—a longing to transcend, to ascend, to somehow rise above what we now perceive as the “matrix” of human existence.
If you’ve found yourself on this path, you’ve likely felt it too: that pull toward higher dimensions, the dream of healing enough or growing enough to finally escape the restrictions of being human. We imagine a reality where we can maintain our cherished sense of self while shedding all the pain, limitation, and messiness that comes with inhabiting a physical form.
But what if I told you that this very desire to escape is itself part of the matrix experience?
The Matrix Includes Everything—Even Our Escape Plans
Here’s where the beautiful paradox reveals itself: every thought about transcendence, every feeling of spiritual superiority, every plan to “exit the matrix” is happening *within* the matrix. Growth, healing, perspective shifts, enlightenment experiences—all of it unfolds within this reality we’re trying to escape.
This isn’t meant to discourage you or diminish your spiritual experiences. Rather, it’s an invitation to expand your understanding of what transcendence might actually mean.
Think of it this way: if we could truly grow out of being human, we would cease to exist as the individuated consciousness that experiences growth in the first place. The wave that dreams of transcending the ocean doesn’t realize it would simply dissolve back into the very source it came from—losing all sense of being a wave at all.
The Only Exit is Through Dissolution
When we speak of “going home” or leaving this planet behind, we’re often imagining some version of ourselves continuing to exist in a better place. But true transcendence—true exit from the matrix—means the complete dissolution of identity as a separate soul. It means merging back into the unified field of consciousness where there is no individuation, no “you” to experience the bliss of being free.
This isn’t wrong or frightening—it’s simply a different kind of experience entirely. But while we’re here, embodied and individuated, we’re meant to fully inhabit this experience.
What We Really Came Here For
Consider this perspective: we didn’t incarnate here by accident or as some form of cosmic punishment. We came here with purpose, with desire, with intention. We wanted to experience the full spectrum of what it means to be human—including the parts that hurt.
We chose to experience wounding so we could discover the profound beauty of healing. We chose limitation so we could experience the joy of growth. We chose separation so we could remember the ecstasy of connection.
Every challenge you’ve faced, every wound you’ve healed, every moment of expansion—these aren’t obstacles to transcendence. They *are* the transcendence experience you came here to have.
Releasing the Pressure to Escape
If you’ve been caught in the exhausting cycle of trying to escape the matrix, take a deep breath. Your desire is divine and natural—there’s nothing wrong with it. But if that desire has become a source of stress, fear, or spiritual hierarchy, perhaps it’s time to gently expand your perspective.
You don’t need to fix, alter, or alchemize anything other than your relationship to the divine within you. You don’t need to become more than human—you need to become fully, authentically, beautifully human.
The Transcendence Paradox
Here’s the heart of the paradox: the only thing worth transcending might be our desire to transcend. When we stop trying so hard to escape our humanity and instead embrace it fully, we often find the very peace and freedom we were seeking elsewhere.
This doesn’t mean abandoning growth or spiritual practice. It means approaching these paths with curiosity and joy rather than desperation and escape. It means recognizing that your healing journey, your astrological insights, your tarot revelations—all of these are not steps toward leaving the matrix but ways of dancing more consciously within it.
Being the Glitch You Wish to See
If your heart truly calls you toward transformation, consider becoming the glitch in the matrix rather than trying to exit it entirely. Be the conscious presence that shows others how to find peace within the human experience. Be the light that illuminates new possibilities without rejecting what is.Your specific expression of humanity—with all its quirks, wounds, wisdom, and wonder—is not something to transcend but something to celebrate. You are consciousness experiencing itself through the beautiful, temporary, precious filter of your individual perspective.
An Invitation to Presence
So I invite you to give yourself permission to enjoy being human. Let yourself feel the full range of emotions. Embrace both your shadows and your light. Find wonder in the ordinary moments and allow yourself to be moved by beauty, connection, and even heartbreak.
Your spiritual journey isn’t about becoming less human—it’s about becoming more fully, authentically, consciously human. And that, in itself, might be the most transcendent experience of all.
*Remember, beloved seeker: you are not trying to escape a prison. You are consciousness at play, exploring every facet of what it means to be alive. What a gift to be here, right now, as exactly who you are.*